Day One

The Destiny Card 

As shown in the previous post, my Destiny card is the 2 of Swords, this is because my birthday falls within the First Decan of Libra, which is ruled by the Moon. 
And this card in the Via tarot very strongly reflects my destiny, or rather my constant battle about achieving my destiny. 

My personality is very much seen in the stereotyped Librian character within Western Astrology (although my own personal feelings on astrology are more strongly leaning towards Horary and Medieval astrology rather than modern psychological post-Alan Leo astrology, but thats a rant for another day!). I am argumentative in the case that I see both sides of the coin and their values and vices, I can see this objectively and distantly, and in seeing all of this I can barely make a decision lol. Too much information, thoughts, research, logic really spoils my broth. And what is harder to do in Spiritual terms is how I can strongly differentiate between my head and my heart/soul/higher self. I struggle because of myself, I feel the weight of the swords on my chest as the weight of choice and indecision - but what I should be doing is closing my eyes and connecting with Spirit and living my life by that wisdom in conjunction with my head - not purely with this 'academic' approach to life and sitting on the fence.

The card in the Via tarot is so beautiful in showing my Destiny.

In the bottom there is the character, feeling the weight of decision, the problem of two paths and picking between the two, and the more he thinks the more he adds to the both arguments and so gets drawn further and further away from the centre, the self, the POINT.
And yet, this character in closing his eyes draws on the Light, on Spirit, on God/dess to help pick a path, and suddenly when you close your eyes and asks for guidance, work with the Divine to craft the path you want, the confusion and shadow is dispersed and only Light and Wisdom and CLARITY comes forward.

And the highest motive shows the scales in perfect balance between the Sword, the Moon the Left and the Right pillar. And I have a strong feeling this is why my practice of the Kabbalistic Cross and the Rituals of the Pentagram are so important to help me refocus, to feel centred, to give me focus and concentration and power that stems from the Gods rather than my ego to help me in my life.
This is my destiny - or rather how I can actively get to the point of my destiny - by just focusing on the Gods, on the Divine Will and not what I THINK I should be doing.

But of course that is easier said that done, far far easier said than done! 

The Twisting Pillars begin... 
So, The Left Pillar, that of the the obstacles, cards giving advice on how to avoid being stuck in what is away from my Path. 
And the Right, giving advice on how to gravitate towards my Destiny, how can I walk the talk of my own Divine Will.

Today the base of these pillars are reflected in the 3 of Swords, and the 5 of Wands. 

My advice tomorrow to overcome my obstacles is to not get caught up in pain, in arguments and feeling tortured within. This is something that I do, and I know that it sucks my motivation away from me. Here is the thoughts of the 'why bother? No one cares what I do and whether is for my higher good or my ego, there is no 'good' that can come from any of this' and it hurts, it overwhelms and it makes me stop, it takes away my ability to do anything productive and makes me wallow in self-pity and pain. So... this is the Tarot saying 'You see this, you do this stupid shit - STOP IT'. The character tries hard to penetrate the darkness , the self-created turmoil and to go beyond the melancholy of Saturn and get the feeling of being closer to God (This card is Saturn in Libra).

Moving towards the Greater Light is the 5 of Wands (Saturn in Leo) is to put the energy into something productive, to try hard to refocus the energy on rather than self-destruction which ultimately re-affirms the ego, but to bask in the Light to try and resurrect the Divine Will. Five is a number of conflict, of activity and ultimately of something coming close to 'winning (and becoming the victory of the 6 of Wands). Be the Lion made in Beauty, not the one made of false light.. To rise above the conflict and petty games and to just walk the path of the Light. 


Really interesting how these two cards are ruled by Saturn - the planet of formation, of the dense matter, the realm that is furthest from Earth and so is the slowest to move and feels sluggish, impenitrable and full of Shadow, yet is the realm that is closest to the Divine, the one that is the God Head, of Zeus. Two cards giving me advice on how to focus on the positive creative Good of saturn, rather than the abyss feeling of time wasted. I create productive things with my head and heart and my time by doing things, not by sitting around on my arse or getting involved in things I dont need to get involved in.