Day 4

Review..

I have definitely not repressed things today - and infact I do feel much better about it.
I have discovered today that I have a huge fear of the unknown and an ever bigger fear of flying (which is why I have always avoided flying, it has never 'bothered' me and I like holidaying in the UK rather than aboard). Only, as part of my destiny I have fallen in love with a man who (currently) lives in Belgium.
So... tomorrow is getting over my newly discovered and unrepressed fear of flying mid air in a massive metal plane.

Holy Crap.

And I have actively been trying to balance the fear with excitement and eager energy - about becoming the Emperor of my fear, of my usual 'feel the fear and do it anyway' attitude to life. I mostly have it and I WILL get on that plane, but I might cry like a baby first for a while... again.


Tomorrows draw

To avoid being the King of Cups - and in this case I'm thinking the over dramatic, melodrama, crying, freaking out person... relying on others to get me through this like an emotional vampire. I will be fine, I just  need to focus on the Above to help me, on letting positive energy from a higher source, rather than seeking it like an attention seeking child from others.

To become the 3 of Disks - to be focused on the 'journey'... one step at a time. I always think of the Triangle as a moving vehicle. You have make your bed, now lie in it and get on with it.
I do feel inspired by the imagery of this deck too.


And I seem to nee to encourage more Earthy energy into my life to get me moving forward spiritually. I think I am so airy I get in a huge tizz about things... and now that I try not to repress stuff I do get emotional as well as a bit tizzy. But these cards are saying to get take the journey one step at a time, practical, methodical, the horse energy I love - the stallion who seeks new realms, the shire horse that says to take it one step at a time firmly rooted and solid with it too.