Day 18 - Moon's day.

Hehehe, Its day 18 - 18 of the Moon card, and its Monday or Moon's Day.

Yes, I am a bit crazy. I am also feeling really tuned in, fired up and stuff is COOKING on gas spiritual-wise for me at the moment. I feel like my spirit is doing a lot of the 'middle bit'. Ya know when you make a cake and you get all the ingredients together and know that its all going to turn into a cake... and you start beating the eggs and doing stuff and mixing in flour and sugar and butter (wow, I am even impressing myself with how much culinary knowledge I seem to have in my brain!) and you mash it all up. You are like YEAH this is going to be a cake.
Then you put it in the oven and you are looking at it through the glass door thinking 'is it ready?' 'is it burnt?' 'did I put too much sugar or butter in it?' 'The book said to take it out now but I'm not sure'.
Well I feel like I'm in that space. I am doing all this stuff and its all in the mixture and Spirit is cooking me. Only I don't really know what into.

The hardest lesson I am learning, is not to worry. If I am being cooked by Spirit, then I can only come out just as Spirit intended if I let go of expectation and my own ego based desires, and surrender my divine will to the love of Spirit. Love is the Law, Love under Will.

Yep - I am surprising myself too.

Anyhoo, back to the Paths.

To avoid - 8 of Wands.
This card is one of fast movement and energy, of messages and activity in the Rider Waite.
In the Via book the 8 of wands is a card of swift action, swift anger and swift forgiveness. This is card that talks of doing things fast and furious. But there is also an element of putting the jigsaw together in this card, of seeing how everything has to fit together and instantly be understood, have the a-ha moment and see how it all works in the Matrix of the universe.
But this is all to avoid.

To encourage is the 3 of Wands,
Now this is a card of excitement and potential. This is a card that shows how energy has gone from being a spark, to a bit of plan to actually trying to manifest things. The figure in this card is like someone performing Liber Resh at Noon, doing the triangle of manifestation and pouring that energy within him. The Ram, the little yods everywhere, shows potential and action that is becoming form and real. Almost watching magick become reality.
Well thats a nice thing to encourage today!

What I have actually done today is interesting...
I have eaten a load of FROGS of jobs I have been planning to do for months (literally, 8 months in the case of getting registered with the local doctors (yes I know, I should know better!)) and have always said I will do but never done. Today, without having a real plan before hand I just seemed to feel the urge to get all these frogs eaten and DONE. I have manifested plans that are 8 months old. Go me!
And I think the 8 of wands vs the 3 shows different sides of the same energy.
I am a person who likes to think about what this is, what happens now, what happens next. I am always thinking two steps ahead. Its why I'm rubbish at making cakes because whilst I'm collecting the ingredients together I am really thinking about how rubbish the cake will be. I do not live in a zen-like ever present mind, and I do constantly think about the jigsaw.
But today, I just did stuff that needed to be done without worrying about what it meant (i.e. if I register at the local doctors its a real real sign I am planning on staying here). Its been needing to be done, and its done, huzzah :D

Of course I do have issues with the 'how is this all going to fit in the jigsaw' especially my meditation this evening, but I am trying to give over to Spirit some more. I am trying to realise Spirit is making a cake out of me, and if I just let Spirit guide me then I shall be one AWESOME cake.

Zen. ( Well actually, the summary of this blog post should be, if Thelema made cakes out of Frogs, they would be the best cakes in the world, the cakes that cakes always were meant to be, not the crazy cakes Heston Bulmenthal thinks cakes should be)