Day 17 Sunday.

Looking ahead to tomorrow I can see...

to avoid the 6 of Wands.
I'm assuming that this will become evident during the day.
Perhaps it is to not get too cocky with 'success' - that perhaps I might feel better tomorrow and decide to do all sorts of things because I am better and actually make myself ill again. Hmmmm - to focus on.

To Encourage - Lust
Lust, something in life that we are told not to have, but I always see the Lust card is when you know you are doing something that makes your spirit sour for a moment. I have been one of those dancing maidens, lost in the rhythm, in the vibration of the drums, in the flames that seem to possess you - and in those moments I have felt free in that abandon, free in that moment when I feel ALIVE.
Tomorrow, I am encouraged to do something that makes me feel alive, that my spirit is telling me it desperately needs, that deep attraction between Spirit and spirit and how to make it dance its dance. In Wicca a lot of the time we talk about 'sex' energy... what we really talking about is this heat, this chemistry of what our souls want and the Gods that give it to us and together we make it manifest. It pleases both for it to happen, but it is a game, it is a push and pull of energy that needs to meet in unity. Like the couple that meets in a bar who has instant chemistry - it is not how quick we get to the end game that gives the biggest bang, but knowing how to play the game and pick the right moment.

Hmmm interesting.

So, today (sunday) whilst contemplating the Lust card, I thought I would do a tarot reading based on a spread that Donald Kraig gives in his Modern Magick book.

Card 1 - Lovers
Over the last few weeks I have fallen in love with my path and my spiritual practice and what it does for me and gives me. I guess I havent realised that whilst I have been doing things I have been in a bit of a 'dry spell' and that is due to a lot of factors. What the Lovers is telling me is that I've got things on track - there is chemistry, there is magick happening.
Card 2 - (which has a stronger spiritual influence than card 1) is Aeon or Judgement
This is the rebirthing I know I have been and I am undergoing, I know this is part of the work - the dry spell, the feelings it brings up to the surface (all that ick that I repress and bury) comes up and has destroyed me, and hopefully rebuilding.
I take to heart sincerely the Child Horus in the Sign of Silence. This is something I need to focus on, that beauty that comes from within, the Silence is needed to feel, to know, to understand - and when the dark thoughts come again, to sit in the sign of silence and let them wash over me, to observe them.
Rebirthing into what I dont know, but it has and is a very interesting process.

Card 3 is the Spiritual Advice and that is Lust!
That is to keep going with the dance, with what is happening. That is to do the rituals and habits that have brought you to this point, that is to poke the Lion and see the reaction. At the moment I am in a deep LOVE phase and it all consumes me. This is good, go with it, do things that enhance this feeling - have the strength to GO FOR IT.
Do not hold back.

Card 4 - Unconscious desires I bring to this point - the Empress.
Now, either this is my unconscious being the Empress, the Mother figure who wants to encourage me to grow and develop - which is either my HGA/HigherSelf or Goddess.
This could be the work of people I work with who are unconsciously influencing me to do this (which may or may not be true).
This could be that I need to cultivate more in my spiritual journey, realise that I need to get something NEW in there to inspire me but in a natural process (like these Tarot Life exercises).

Card 5 - Conscious Desires I bring to this point - Art
I want to keep on with this and to marry, to meet up, to synthesis this information together. This is not easy for me because I can be obsessive, I don't synthesis I just focus on the one thing and sod the rest. This card reminds me to be balanced, to bring my magical life and my mundane life together into a moderation, into a balance which is healthy, workable. I think I had been too weighed down before by the mundane world previously.

Card 6 - Practical Advice - The Moon.
This is process, some days it will be good, sometimes it will be hard, sometimes there will be nothing. Spiritual journeys are one of wax and wane, but the important thing to remember is the Light Within, that things take time to germinate and grow.
Also, the Moon card might be asking me to literally, practically, work with Moon energy too to balance the Liber Resh stuff I am doing a lot of as well.
There is more to uncover when the time is right, let the Dance happen to its own beat (like the Lust card of the Via) and get lose in the fast and in the slow rhythms. The world is of light and shade, no day in spiritual work is the same as yesterday.

Card 7 - The final outcome - Hermit
This card for the last few years and come up in any spiritual reading I have done.
I am the Hermit, always working away doing something for my development, I am looking within to find the 6 rayed Star... looking without to find inspiration to get it, but actually I just need to focus within and do what I need to do.
The Hermit reminds me that my journey, no matter who I walk with and what groups I work in, is my own. We are all hermits, we all walk alone but its nice to know there are friends in the darkness around us. That despite all the teachings, books, exercises - it is only ourselves that can find the Star light within, and let it shine, only us that can cultivate it, explore it, introvertly and quietly DOING my spiritual development.

And that is the dance I love, the dance I have played with today and has given me the fizzle back into my step :D Every man and woman is a Star :D

(oh and I avoided feeling I had beaten this stupid cold, I havent and whilst I probably could go back to work tomorrow and suffer for it majorly, I have taken the wise decision to wait one more day, until I am fighting fit to return to work, and not spreading my germs everywhere! 6 of Wands avoided, awesome!)