Day 13 - Woensday..

Yep I am very much staying in my attempting to practice my Flemish vein...

And for today I happened to draw ...

To Avoid - Princess of Wands..
The ego, the flash I am AMAZING, the big show off.... and the big pretender.
Rather than rushing in with 2 feet (which although isnt a bad thing, just not today) one should perhaps...

Encourage - King of Swords.
To be a bit more level-headed, to be logical and professional and practical. To be safely in the sphere of walking carefully and not pre-judging the minute of what is to happen.
The King of Swords is forming things, is creating new opportunities, but from calculated things, from clear communication, and being able to perhaps express things better than before.


I was surprised when I saw this couple in these positions... I have always thought it is better to be a 'gun ho' sort of person. The people who I admire are the wands types - the brave, the slightly louder spoken, the ones that feel the fear and do it anyway.
And yet here it is in the avoid position.

And instead there is this King of Swords, logical, clear communicator speaking about professionalism and the face that does not give away your true feelings, the mask sometimes we need to wear to protect ourselves, our intentions and even to make new grounds.

Today I had an appraisal with my boss - something I knew was potentially coming up but she has been saying it for the last few weeks and its not happened. And then today it happened. And I thought 'Ok, brave, be the brave lion, the most awesome, the most amazing..' the Princess of Wands, but actually, in the office I felt myself becoming the King of Swords. I was in what I call 'interview mode' where you say things clearly and precise and say how you are aware of your limitations and how to move forward etc etc... we talked about how I am progressing as a professional, and how I need to get out of the 'lets not be scared of the boss - lets COMMUNICATE better' and we even talked about ways to overcome that obstacle so we can communicate better.
So... I feel together we had a King of Swords moment.

And then I had the discipline to go food shopping before going home and falling asleep on the sofa and feeling miserable and hungry without food in the cupboards. And even... planning on my meditation tonight after a talk with my friend and a meditation.


I am King Professional, organised and clear.... I feel awesome. I need more days of THIS rather than emotional ARGH like I have had over the last week.