So, here we go again and today I have
Avoid - The Fool
hmmmm this morning I woke up very low again, and I just want to escape from everything and go back to Belgium. There was a moment yesterday at work when I was in peak melt down I just wanted to leave work, pack a bag and go and not come back....
and the Fool is saying - avoid being a romantic stupid plonker. You can't run away and expect everything to be perfect, you can't just force new beginnings they have to be done TOGETHER and with Divine Will of the right time. You can't run away from these feelings, so you just have to ride them.
Encourage - 10 of Swords.
That yes I feel shit... but I know what I want and where I want to be in my life for the first time ever. I actually have an ideal future of things rather than a 'oh see where the wind takes me' attitude.
This is a new shift, and needs time to process, but that doesnt happen by wrapping the dark clouds around you NO you have to try to smash through the things that make you feel like crap, and get to the other side to change your life, to the sun behind the clouds... its a process.
And my LBRP was amazing today, and I really connected with the archangels and the Kerebim making their presence felt by me becoming the magical weapons and so I feel the transformative nature of their being with the blessing of the Divine.
If I keep my sight on the Divine Will - then I can break through the shit feelings and into the actual point of it all. Break the obstacles with the Divine Will, rather than moping about them and having emo moments.
Cheers Tarot, I needed this slap in the face of reality lol.
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