Whilst I do feel very passionate about the spiritual work I do and feel drawn to, I have to admit it was just wonderful to spend time away from it for a while. And last night when I went back to doing my spiritual work again I felt the energy really strong and vibrant. Sometimes a rest is as good as practice.
So... back to month 2 of Tarot Life, and with the Wild Unknown I have drawn..
The Mother of Swords or the Queen of Swords, and blocking this card by
- being touchy feely
- line of least resistance when being confronted
- line of least resistance when being confronted
- being forgiving and broadminded
-showing a lot of humility.
I know that when I am angry and I want to confront someone - I do it, there and then, plan and simple. The Queen of Swords swoops in, says stuff and is then normal and fine.
Yet I know that if I feel or even fear confrontation or some sort of 'quick word' I panic and I want to run away. Especially in my work environment. Its not that I do not like my job, I love it - but I do feel very insecure at times and mostly due to fear of being told off for something. So I just fear it, and then when someone does mention something I should or shouldnt have done (as it all happens in this job) I don't question or expand, I just take the shouting whilst it happens and then hope its all over with.
And I do feel like I am resigned to it - I am powerless to stop this from happening. No matter how good I am at my job, or how hard I try to be good at it, I know that this will happen. I know that somewhere along the line there will be me feeling as though I am being shouted at.
Of course - this could be me also being too touchy feely. That I am putting personal feelings in the way of general working life - and so when something does happen at work and we all need a 'quick word' I feel it is always me they are talking to. Always me that is the problem, and so I take it all on personally and get in a flap.
The Queen here seems to say, take a broader view, see things from the perspective of the Owl, of the Steel Blade. Wear your professional face, and not your heart on your sleeve.
I know that when I am angry and I want to confront someone - I do it, there and then, plan and simple. The Queen of Swords swoops in, says stuff and is then normal and fine.
Yet I know that if I feel or even fear confrontation or some sort of 'quick word' I panic and I want to run away. Especially in my work environment. Its not that I do not like my job, I love it - but I do feel very insecure at times and mostly due to fear of being told off for something. So I just fear it, and then when someone does mention something I should or shouldnt have done (as it all happens in this job) I don't question or expand, I just take the shouting whilst it happens and then hope its all over with.
And I do feel like I am resigned to it - I am powerless to stop this from happening. No matter how good I am at my job, or how hard I try to be good at it, I know that this will happen. I know that somewhere along the line there will be me feeling as though I am being shouted at.
Of course - this could be me also being too touchy feely. That I am putting personal feelings in the way of general working life - and so when something does happen at work and we all need a 'quick word' I feel it is always me they are talking to. Always me that is the problem, and so I take it all on personally and get in a flap.
The Queen here seems to say, take a broader view, see things from the perspective of the Owl, of the Steel Blade. Wear your professional face, and not your heart on your sleeve.
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