3 of Swords

One card we all have felt in our lives is the 3 of Swords...

And it is definitely something you might want to block willingly. I feel for me though this is about not blocking in the sense of denial, its blocking because of my sanity.
I have had a very intense time emotionally recently, and I am going to my Mothers later, because I feel like I need to, I want to be by my family - yet I know that it will pull on my heart strings and my Mother will pull and use it to her advantage (i.e. she wants me to move near her to look after her) but I am aware of it and sometimes blocking, or rather shielding  yourself from undue pain is a good idea.


EDIT - actually, the card was a good warning, the 3 of swords can be a card of heartache because sometimes we like to pick at the healing wounds and make them hurt again. There is something odd about the human need, at times, to be emotionally sadomasochistic about things.Well, for me this card definitely meant that. I can not change what has happened in the past, mourning is no longer an option and wishing 'what if' and sometimes you just have to pick yourself up and get on with it.
There is this strange isolated part of myself though that likes to think these things and want to stab right into old wounds, that hunts around for more poison to feed it... this is not good or healing and today I realised what was happening and saw it for what it was. Yes I had a little cry but for what was honestly causing it, not  because of the isolated demon in me that likes to inflict more pain on myself

Yep, this is what I now intend to do - get on with it :)